Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Battle With the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a dreary weekday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a intense sensation sprang behind my right eye. It was followed by quick shocks, like electric shocks. As each class progressed, the pain subsided and then returned with greater force. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried paracetamol, but the pain remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that fall, and again in the spring, soon forming an annual pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-blown pain in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often start with intense discomfort around a single eye that lasts up to several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people suffer by the condition, and men are more often affected. Cluster headaches typically start with sudden, excruciating agony focused on a single eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which arrives in periodic cycles; others have chronic attacks, characterized by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the figure dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a chronic patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, like many causes, made things worse. After having alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as drunken episodes. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The first description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the subject. They attributed the disease to an evil spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical medical records suggest unusual remedies for what some experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a separate condition, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially classified by global medical committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major artery that delivers blood to the head. Prominent specialists in treating the disorder explain this.

In 1998, scientists released the findings of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple operations before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” one says. He works by eliminating other common head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough history is crucial: on which side do symptoms appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Certain features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided me through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack passed.

National guidelines on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific medication administered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the bouts of some people.

But leading specialists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer treatment process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the bout determines the approach.” Brief bouts with occasional episodes are managed with abortive therapy alone. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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